I literally just wanna crawl under my bed and hibernate right now because I have a serious problem with taking on more than I can handle and now I'm behind on coursework at school and constantly worrying about planning CU next week and organizing TEAM for New Wine in the summer and just urghhhhh! I don't know if blogs are a place to rant or anything since I've never written or read one before but I'm really just treating it like a diary.
Right now, school work is literally right at the bottom of my list when it should really be at the top, I genuinely think I have a procrastinating problem, I just think of ideas all the time but they are such big and time-consuming ideas like this whole charity thing I'm attempting to do. Because I'm on a time limit for it, I'm always panicking about not getting something about it finished or forgetting something and it's horrible! I want to do it so badly though because I want to do something good with my time rather than just work which seems pointless, even though I know it isn't.
Even while I'm writing this blog entry I know that I should actually be doing work but I just want to relax and even this isn't helping because there is literally always something bad on my mind and if I do get that rare 10 seconds to be happy, someone or something just comes along and ruins it! I barely have time to even go out and see my friends anymore.
Starting a blog considering all of this probably wasn't the best thing I could've done but oh well...
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